I medicated my BP with alcohol for over ten years. When I was manic, drinking took the edge off and slowed down my racing thoughts. When I was depressed, it helped me get through the day, it made the night come quicker and it helped me sleep.

Eventually I got on meds and slowed down on the drinking. I still had BP episodes, but seemed better.....but the drinking got away from me. A manic episode combined with way too much alcohol led me to a very dark place.

I quit drinking completely three years ago and it was the best thing I have ever done for my mental and physical health. Now I take my meds exactly as prescribed and try to live healthier.

I still have my mood episodes but they are much less pronounced.

Best of Luck to you.