I've found there's points in my depression (like now) when the thought of added stress on top of feeling the way I do makes me shudder. The thing with a recovery from depression: you don't feel as tired and overwhelmed. The pressures of daily life are not as bad as they seem when you are depressed. I used to work full time, have a social life, and still take time to myself. At this moment, any of that sounds overwhelming... once the depression gets better, it doesn't seem so scary to be living. I've been on both sides more than once. It doesn't make you a fraud, it's just that the level of depression is still pretty high. Right now, I can't picture a productive life for myself because I'm in the middle of this fog. If the fog we not around, I could probably do pretty well for myself (and have in the past). Three truck is to keep struggling till the fog lifts... (hugs) it's ok to feel like you are feeling.