In my expereince, people who were used and mistreated usually hate themselves and feel worthless. They do think of themselves as terrible people. But trust me when I say that you are none of the above. I do understand though believing the lies. I understand that first hand.

Here is what I hope you do instead of taking diet pills. I hope you can get the help that you deserve to learn that nothing was your fault. And that you are not how anyone who hurt you defined you. You are a good person who was hurt. And I am so sorry that happened to you. People can heal the wounds of being "used and mistreated" It takes work of course. But the pain can get less. Much less. And you can take back your power. Finding the right person to work with is such a blessing. I wish this for you. I wish this for all people who have been hurt. Including myself. May those who have been so hurt that they use food as a substute for power or control or medication, find the help to heal those wounds.