Hi all. I am writing havent in awhile. Things are going crazy for me! I am trying to be good, but i cant figure out what is going on anymore. My life is going crazy. This time of year is killing me. and Im not in the hospital now and its like things are back to 'normal' and im stuck here in the throws of my reality and getting hit with everything at once, the only way out for me in Ana. Thats it! Either to not eat or get rid of what i do...i dont know what to do.....my family doesnt know im still doing everything i am...and now i just dont know...im so scared....so freaking alone...