I keep putting things off indefinitely. Like checking in here. Later, later, later... before you know it, several days have passed. I seem to be doing that with everything lately. Putting it off, putting it of....

My mood has stabilized since I crashed hard two weeks ago. Occasional ups and downs, but they're short-lived.

Financial problems are still there, family problems....

There are things I could mention here, but I don't want to trigger anyone. I'm worried about friends both on here and offline. They're doing things that I worry will end badly. I don't want to lose any of my friends: I cherish them all. And it feeds into the guilt, because I feel like it's my fault and that there is nothing I can do. I hope everyone is safe and not in too much pain.

I apologize for not going back and reading all the posts I missed. I need to figure out how to manage my time properly. But I'm tired and exhausted and just want a break from everything, all the problems and commitments and reponsibilities....