Hi all. Im new to this part of the site. I amt rying to deal with a lot. I have had multiple cases of abuse in my life...and its taken awhile fo rme to see them even as abuse. Last summer was the worst..and i dont know, lately things have been coming up and hitting me in the head. I am so freaking out! Dont know how to handle anything anymore. I am so tempted to purge or cut or not eat..or somethign! JUST ANYTHING to make it stop hurting so bad! I dont know how to handle this! I dont know what is going on. This is freaking me out and im really scared...