Thank you Moon!

That article was very well written and did a great job of making sense of a very confusing experience. Going through this experience can feel crazy and wrong, and reading that others have similar experiences helps. I will check out the rest of that blog later when I have more time. It looks very interesting.

Learning to trust, connect, share emotions, and be vulnerable is an intensely intimate experience. It can be very confusing when erotic feelings begin to occur when you don’t expect it to. My therapist is my mother’s age, nearing retirement, and I would not expect or want those feelings to be there. Yet it was something I had to sort through as part of my therapy.

In my case, when we first started to discuss this, my t reacted by emotionally withdrawing from me. This reinforced all of my ‘stuff’. We worked through it and she is fully there for me now, I think. We are still trying to find our way. It was very confusing for both of us though.

I know that for others their sexual feelings can be explained by normal human adult physical attraction. That was not true for me. When I finally allowed connection between us to develop, the feelings I had were those of an inner infant, and a scared inner infant at that. My needs when I allow them are for nurturing, safety, acceptance. Where does the sexual come from in that? It turns out that there is actually a direct connection that many might not expect.

Thank you for this article, and for your previous posts, that help to make this experience less scary and more normal.

Turtle