At least it would be for me

If you don't mind responding I'd also like to know how many close friends you have and if you have always had friends/close friends. And do you have people who love you.

I personally had no friends until middle school. I had one close one only through that. about 10 friends, not the previous one included, none of them close, in high school. No friends senior year up through now besides my husband. I had no people who loved me until I met my husband, now I have 7 who do. None of them are close. (know me, someone I'd confide my feelings and struggles to) My husband is a special case, and does not apply to this