(((InvisibleButterfly))) - I'm truly sorry for how your family treats you and its a shame. Is there anyone in your family who has a level head and some compassion....who could keep you informed of who's sick etc? This is a free country and you could pay respects to a deceased relative, regardless how the family feels. I don't understand how they could be so cruel and uncaring. They're obviously miserable people and don't let that make you think its you who's the problem. Enjoy and love your kids. I pray it gets better but if it doesn't its their loss. Wishing you peace and love.