****I hope that this is ok to post here. I know everyone has other feeling's but these are just mine****

I feel I can start opening up more now that I have become more comfortable here at PC. I thought my Bi-Polar disorder would be the best place to begin. This is why I have never mentioned that I have it until now, because I have always tried to hide it. I have other issues going on, but I will begin here. I don't talk about it because I hate it. I just want to be....

The reason's why I hate being Bi-Polar are:

Not knowing....

If I will sleep the night before or that night.
If I will wake up,get up and actually stay up.
How my day is going to be.
How it will end up.
If I will make it through the day.
Who I will hurt in passing.
Who I will hurt in my personal life.
Why one moment I am Happy and the next I am Sad.
Why I am crying at the drop of a hat.
Why I Lack motivation.
Why I have Low self-esteem (no self-esteem).
Why, out of 7 kids do I have this disorder.

****Please add yours if you would like****