It's very depressing for me. I would never be able to find another job that pays this much and even with this job we are barely making it, see my delima? It's not so black and white.

I'm thinking take the risk of abuse to get better and hope I can come out ahead like I always have with alcohol and benzos. I've spoken to people on adderall and they swear if you stay on the correct doses it helps and you won't feel high.