I am in the UK and our a&e are useless...there is nothing they can do, I just need drugs. I hate my husband right now, how could he leave me in this condition, he knows how I get. I hate him so much right now wish I'd never met him, I am better off completely alone in some hole with a life time supply of drugs. That's all I want. He is just like all everyone else at the end of the day and like everyone else, he hates me. Well he can't hate me as much as I hate myself. I despise myself.