Having a really hard time with depression today. Don't know what to do with myself. Don't want to die, but finding it so hard to live when most moments are just so emotionally painful. My husband tries to understand but I know he doesn't. No one could understand this hell unless you've been there. Depression since early August - - how much longer can I do this? I guess I have no choice but to hang in, keep taking meds and talking to T and making an effort to engage in activity. This is so hard.