I feel the same way, however, I know the depression is causing me to feel this way. If I could just get out of the depressive episode, I would be less likely to feel suicidal when I'm back to normal, but I just don't have much hope of that they are going to find something that works. With the loss of hope the more I consider suicidal a better solution. I wish we could all rise above that solution and be happy again. Good luck to all of you.