Hello,

thought I'd throw this question out. How far do you go to avoid being abandoned by someone you respect? I mentioned in previous threads that while I was in hospital my doctor dumped me because I was in a crisis. Just after he dumped me they handed me a 5 hour pass whereby I went home and tried to commit suicide. The pain was overwhelming. However, I got so confused I ended up having him paged. This was during business hours. He was not happy about that at all. He convinced me to go back to hospital and the entire time I tried everything I could to keep him as my doctor. I negotiated with another doctor all these things so that I could continue to see him. Instead they offered 4 additional sessions so that I could get closure. On the last day after we met I was fine and felt great until I got home and realized my only support was gone. I freaked and phoned a help line and in the confusion she called the police and I was taken back to hospital. I just wanted to talk to someone. Anyways, the did not certify me and I went home. I begged the one nurse to make sure he never knew because our relationship was done and I didn't want him to know I freaked out after our last session. A month later I saw him on the street and he looked at me with knives coming from his eyes. It hurt because a simple smile or a wave would have been ample but that look he gave me said to me he hated me to the full extent and has killed me inside since. Any advise?