Dear SI,
You were my friend once. Well, more correctly, you were my only friend once. I saw you as some form of godly release, and you were the only reason I could ever sleep back then. Then you took the light out of me. And I still feel dark.

It took me years to realize you were no friend of mine. I ended up with broken bones, bruises, scars. Fix the problem by breaking it. It was all a lie. It was almost a competition to see how many times a human can break themselves and put themselves back together. But there comes a time where you get tired of nights alone, gauze, braces, stitches. I have to let my body grow over you.

I haven't returned to you and I plan not to. I am tired of you. I am tired of feeling numb. I'd rather be friendless than have you around ever again.