I have been where you are and yes its part of the manic and part of the rejection that spirals us into the depression, I have done this online in 06 and in person in 10, the second one put me in the hospital. Tell your dr, because you need the help to get out of the episode. I have come really close to doing this again just this month so I totally sympathize. It is hell. I personally have decided this hypersexual urge must have an evolutionary component to it for it to be so strong. You will get through this, you just need to get help. My hub does not know the specific trigger for my hospitalization, yours doesnt need to know your episode trigger either if you dont feel you can face it. I couldnt. Just that you are IN an episode and need help. Hang in there and try not to beat yourself up with guilt. Its the illness.