Hey everyone not been here for a while! Hope you're all okay.

I'm looking for some advice and encouragement I suffered with depression around 2 years ago quite badly I lost 2 stone in weight always crying and really suffered with it for a while. Too cut a long story short I got myself right got off the meds and got a new job and said to myself get a grip and think forward... I've been great since a recent turn of events. My girlfriend has grade 3 treatment needed for pre cancerous cells in her woman's area I can't remember the name but it's after that smear test which she didn't go to for years now she's finally gone they found that they need to do treatment now in the uk as far as I'm aware it goes to grade 5 which is bad... So she's been recalled in 14 days which is something as it's not straight away but it's really making me worry and feel depressed all I keep thinking is she's going to die... And it's really really hurting me I can't function right I love her so much and the 2 kids who are a nightmare at times but I love them to bits aswell, I'm suppose to be getting engaged in the next 12 months and I feel so horrid inside as I'm so scared of losing her, EVERYONE tells me not to worry I've spoken to friends who have had the exact same treatment and said don't worry but I still feel depressed and anxious.

I'm looking for some encouraging advice I'm only 25 it's like I feel my life is gonna be great marriage and stuff but this keeps pecking at my head I'll see through with any treatment I'll be right by her side. Life is great accept from the nagging now if that's what marriage is about I need to learn how to switch off.

Thanks for reading good to be back hope everyone is okay missed you all

Danny
Xxxx