It is so hard for me right now. I am very depressed and I don't know what to do. I have bipolar disorder and I don't know if I am getting sick or if life is giving me legitimate reasons for feeling like crap. The minute I wake up in the morning, I start crying. I cry at work, I cry in the shower. My boyfriend does not understand. He says that I am not a little girl and that I should be able to deal with my problems better. But it is not that simple for me. I don't want to feel this way, I just do. I don't even know how I get out of bed in the mornings anymore. It is hard for me to do basic things like take a shower. I just want to stay in bed with my head under the covers until I just waste away.