Hi everyone.. just found this forum online today and im hoping someone can give some friendly helpful advice.

I have had a few difficult years, to cut the long story short i have a very small family, no brothers or sisters just grandparents and parents. I used to have abig family around me but 8 years ago my close family fell out with my uncle aunt cousins etc so family wise i have only had parents and grandparents. Things will never be the same with the family we fell out with and i cannot forgive them. 2 of my grandparents passed away in the last 4 years, and now my nan is terminally ill and has been given days/weeks to live. My mum also was diagnosed with cancer a couple of years ago, she has pulled through but is having an operation end of this month regarding something else . All my family are getting older or passing away and because i have very little family around me i know i will be the only one left on my own.

Friends wise i have always struggled i dont know if its my lack of confidence or what but i only have 2 friends - both are very wrapped up in their own worlds and i dont feel that close to them. Sure we meet once a month for dinner but nobody is really that close to me.

i have a boyfriend of 3 years and he wants me to move in with him next year. This is a big step which im sure i am ready for at 27. i feel like he loves me and treats me well although I worry that we wont marry an have children and then he will leave me and again... i will b alone!

Basically the reason im on here is i feel so alone - and i also feel like it could get worse. My biggest fear is losing all my family !

I dont feel like i have any confidence to make new friends and dont know how?

I run my own business so i hav the condfidence to do that but i dont hav staff and even if i did they wouldnt be true friends.

If anyone could give me some advice...without calling.me crazy (i know i prob am)