Hi

You are obviously hurting pretty bad right now and as the song says, "the first cut is the deepest". never a truer word spoken.
It took me a whole year to get over my first heartbreak but i got there in the end. That was 20 years ago, but i still remember it.
Hang in there, you will be on the road to recovery soon enough. This pian that you a feeling now will be a distant memory this time next year...
Take care of yourself !