Does anyone else experience this? My violent thoughts towards myself and others are so anxiety provoking during the day. When I'm laying in my bed at night sometimes the only thing that soothes me is the thought of a bunch of knifes running all over my body or something else ridiculously violent. At night it's only towards myself I have these thoughts but the repetitiveness and stability of the thoughts calm me and put me to sleep. Does anyone else experience this? Maybe because I'm actually allowing my thoughts to come and not trying to stop them like when I'm around other people they have a calming effect.