Rant Warning!!!

My grandpa is dying as we speak, I just finished one of my Midterms on line that Im sure I failed, I just found out 3 weeks ago I am unable to have children after waiting all these years for the "right" time, I had a major medication change a little over a week ago, my sister calls and is upset because I called her out on her drunken rage that she denies she was drunk just upset, etc THEN TO TOP IT OFF...

This is my "husbands" house, "his" money, "his everything" "his truck" I gave this person 15 years of my life of working right beside him just as much and for the past few years its all of a sudden his because we had a separation I came back then now its all his because I left it here because I had no where to live so I slept on someone couch for 6 months with no food (I walked 3 miles to a church and 3 miles back just for enough food for around 4 days you could only go one every 2 weeks) I cant take this. I feel like exploding. My name isn't on anything anymore and he closed our joint bank account. Sorry I know this is a rant. But why bother doing **** anymore? Why bother staying? because Im a lousy person that has bipolar and no one wants to deal with me. My husband does love me I am just ranting but things are wayyy out of whack right now!