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I forgot thanks for mentioning both of you...
Not knowing why I spend so much money I feel like an addict with this stupid disorder.

This is one of my main problems. 3 good thing's is that I pay cash for everything never owned a credit card and I only pretty much buy necessities(YEAH! RIGHT!)on the necessities part so my man thinks. My boyfriend says at least you only like to binge really at the $1.00 stores. For me that can be a deadly issue to. Since I take the bus everywhere I can only carry so much. Believe me I have had my arms loaded with stuff and this is not during the Holidays.
What he doesn't like is just out of the blue when I want to hit Walmart or the mall I will splurge then feel bad about it and bring it back the next day my boyfriend hates when I do that. I hate when I do that. Actually let me refraise that I love when I shop I hate feeling guilty about it then having to bring it all back.

Recently, I spent $200.00 on my self for clothes(Which I never buy for myself ever!!!)and I told him about it and he said he was prowd of me for doing it, because I need them and because I never buy for myself. Then I felt guilty and felt that I could use that on my daughter. So, the next day brought it all back.
Buy for me whats that. I don't deserve it.

I HATE BEING BI-POLAR. I REALLY DO I am crying now so gotta go. Thanks for letting me talk.
I love you guys here.
Jlove