I'm sorry you feel that way. I used to feel that way too. I also had friends that seemed to relish in my failutes and try to knock down my success. Well no one needs friends like that, kind of defies the definition of friendship.

I was raised to be not seen or heard. It took me a long time to feel that I had calue as a person and that I actually had something of value to say and offer others. I still struggle with this at times, even here. But have for the most part improved a great deal. Many of the people here helped me with that as well.

I know if you stick around here you will make some friends. Sometimes the only thing we really need to work on most is how we feel about ourselves. Others can pick up on that and not consiously react to it.

I am sure you are not a bore but maybe don't value yourself enough.

And hey, I bet most if not all the people who just replied to you here would also like to see your life get better and not worse.