welcome! I also am newly diagnosed, last 6 months I have started therapy and do alot of reading ... I just went over this topic with my T today I understand your confusion to trust yourself there are tools out there to help guide you 3 steps as each of us differ in our disease you should see a professional this is a key to preventing so many things and I would start therapy before your husband gets home your stress level and anxiety will change as you have been in control since he has been gone . I tried floating around without therapy thinking I could figure this out but all I was doing was reacting to situations instead of trying to understand them.. a big part of this for me is taking responsibility for my behavior but I can tell you for me beginning this journey is helping I am having some peaceful moments I didnt think were possible keep posting and again we are all different what works for me may not work for you,