I work for a very small home care agency and there are several nurses that run it. We don't have an HR department because we're so tiny, about 50 employees or so. The work is easier than working in a nursing home, but I struggle a lot if I work too much. I feel like a lost cause because I can't work at a hospital or a nursing home as a cna because I will break down from too much interaction with people and too much stress. I worked in retail at 3am in the mornings stocking shelves, but even that caused me mental breakdowns. My boss let me leave when ever I wanted though because I always told her I needed to study for school; I stayed at that job for about half a year until I quit from not being able to handle myself.

I'm so stupid, I don't even understand why I exist. I wish I could let them know I need to work less hours, but they always worm my schedule with more hours than I ask for. They don't care about the health of the employees, but where else would I work? I'm so stressed that I stop eating meals and I've only been eating snacks. Everything seems to taste bad and give me the runs. I guess I don't expect an answer from anyone anymore and this is more of a pathetic rant.