I am deep in depression territory. Not sure if it's situational or an episode bit it doesn't matter because I still feel like shyte. Haven't had the motivation to do anything besides lie in bed so long my body aches. Or contemplate life... and death. mostly death.

Thankfully I don't actually know anatomy as well as I thought I did. Thankfully my razor wasn't that sharp. Thankfully my roommate was in the room.so I couldn't OD on everything at once. Otherwise I could have died friday.

I DID go to classes today, though, and even though I didn't finish my homework over the weekend, and even though I got.so upset.at my physics professor for basically saying I was stupid for not understanding him that I cried in front of a few people, I still got out of bed to tell the sun to screw off. And that should count for something, maybe.