Let me be fine. Let me be a breath. How about me being a drop of water? What if I could wish I was a bird in flight?

The next time I jump in bed to hide undercovers, my mind will be changed to graditude and thinking that others are suffering more than me in some way. Yes I suffer but someone has more suffering.

I am going to speak softly tomorrow. Not because I have to but because It is nice. I just want to feel good being nice. Even though auntie made me feel guilty about "be a nice girl" I know still, it "does" feel good to just be nice once in a while. I will let myself. Not for the day, maybe for a half hour but I will enjoy it.