I was in a similar position once. Now my arms and legs are completely scarred up and I hate it. When I tan they stick out white as white and I have cysts and growths on me from the skin damage I did. I never thought mine was that bad either, only needed stitches a few times, its nothing Nobody can meet me without noticing scars and knowing I was mentally ill at some stage of my life. Wish I knew then what I know now! ITS NOT WORTH IT. But spose it doesnt matter what I or anyone else says, you are not going to stop until you want to.