Today I got screamed at by my mom. She scolded me for cleaning my arms when she touched me and for not letting her touch me. She accused me of despising her and told me she didn't care anymore. She told me that I thought that I was sick but I wasn't, that it was just me. But it isn't just her that I don't let touch me, it's just my entire family. They're just dirty. And if I'm dirty, then I'll make my things dirty and it just makes me so uncomfortable. Then she tells me how I'm not going to have any friends in the future and it just... Sticks with me. Right now I'm convinced that she really hates me. What am I going to do?