Started a new med last nite & feeling pretty foggy this morning. I hate that!
I got a link in an email yesterday from my old school where I just finished my masters. It's about my favorite prof, a true mentor for me, has a documentary coming out. I was so excited; then I started to watch the trailers & realized how much I miss school, the immersion into the art world that cocooned me & helped me bloom. That's gone & is just a memory now. I life I so desperately wanted & couldn't reach bec my own personal life got in the way. Once again I had to let go of a dream In order to sacrifice for others. When do I get my turn? I wanted it 20 yrs ago. Everything I wanted is so far in the past! There's nothing to look forward to in the future except being one of those parents that live vicariously thru their children. I guess that's me. What a waste of a life! Total effin waste!