Major hugs to you, medical fox! I was in teaching field, not medical, so don't know bout that! But sure can relate! And in military as well!!!! Only thing I can manage now is writing, but I see that some who replied are making things work out ok, and i know some folks personally who have had success in coming out. Not so much me, unfortunately! However, I like the answers folks gave you here about taking some time off, talking to therapist, etc. and I found those to be be helpful as well. I care, and I wish you all the best!!!!!!