I don't seek it. I have been hospitalized twice.

The first time was 5 years ago. My pdoc was taking me off a med that was causing me heart issues. I came off too fast and my brain went nuts. The stupid thing is that the pdoc in the hospital (different doctor) put me on a higher dosage then I had been on when I was taking none of the med....

I was also in a month ago with an OD for 12 days. At that point I had given up on getting help, and had a really bad experience with a T who when told I was suicidal said "so what, other people have problems too". I walked out of the room and called their office to let them know what happened. They offered an appointment the next day with someone else and I said it would be too late.