I don't know if i'm alone in feeling this way and i'll try to be as descriptive as I can to help understand, but I wanted to see if anyone else felt this way and if it could be the BPD or something else going on.

I'll wake up in the morning and feel this fog encapsulate me, it sucks the life and energy out of me, I try and break through it by eating a good breakfast, thinking positive thoughts, taking my vitamins, exercising and socializing but despite my best efforts it hovers around me and keeps me from enjoying those things that i'm doing. It's an overall gloom.

And then on very few occasions "i'd say if i'm lucky once every couple of weeks" for just one day, I'll wake up and I don't feel that "fog", and I do the same things that I do with the fog but I feel better doing them and more optimistic.

To me it feels like it's a physiological symptom because I don't do anything to create it or to make it go away, I either wake up with it or I don't. I want to find out what it is that creates me waking up and not feeling that fog because I want to learn how to re-create it so that I can experience it more often.

To me it's so unusual but if I had to explain where it comes from or the experience I have with it then I have to say that something physical or chemical is going on inside that I have no control over.

I've taken anti-depressants and they didn't effect this "fog" in any way.

Has anyone else felt this?