I have spent my entire life running away. I am just now setting boundaries to keep myself from doing it and it's not an easy task, every other day i'm fighting myself internally and sometimes even outwardly talking to myself "Which would make me look nuts to an outsider" lol..

This feeling is a part of BPD and if not controlled can and will control your life. For me I would feel restless and unhappy, I would have this unrelenting feeling to just "run" to go somewhere/anywhere new and exciting just to get that high feeling because things where I was at became complacent and routine. I'd find every excuse I could to validate the impulsiveness. I'd tell myself "well, I don't really have anything here", i'd quit my job so I could say "well, now I don't even have a job here" so what's holding me here?.. I would make my outside world fit my inside world no matter how irrational or impulsive.
I know the feeling and I know it well and I have catered it "a lot"..

I think with BPD it's not necessarily about the feeling or the desire to do it but rather your behavior as a result of that feeling or desire. I sit with it "uncomfortably I might add" but I don't act on it because I know i'm not in a mindset to make that decision as a responsible, mature, healthy thinking individual, so I choose to not take any action towards any of my thoughts or feelings "at the moment".. I'm not sure where you are in therapy or how far you've come with this but I just want you to know you're not crazy, I've been where you are hundreds of times in my life and what works for me is not acting on those thoughts until I can better process it without impulsiveness or destruction.