im so relieved to see the thing about where u said u feel ugly. i was going to start a post on just this so i know im not alone. ive always felt like everyone is looking at me & thinking damn shes ugly. i have good days where i feel pretty but mostly bad days. its so horrible. i cant bear to look at pics of myself. right now its even worse cuz ive gained weight. very depressed. i read where alot of times people dont look at us the way we look at ourselves. still im paranoid all the time about the way i look on the outside & not to mention i dont know how to relate to people so whenever i try to talk i stumble words & that just makes it worse. so i just wanted u to know you are not alone & im glad im not alone. as for meds they can be a big help but u just have to find whats right for u which can take awhile. it took me awhile to find the right meds for me. i was misdiagnosed for the longest time with major depression when finally they said im bp1. they put me on abilify & it seems to help alot. good luck to u hun