today i forced myself to do stuff around the house. im down to my last load of laundry & its taking all ive got to hang it up. also every day i end up drinking lots of decaf coffee which still wires me up after so much but i just keep doing it. i guess out of boredom. lately ive just been sitting in my room all day staring at the tv feeling like im gonna go crazy. i hate having to make myself do things. why cant i just be normal?