I am bipolar and had an episode that lasted for 4 years. I became a complete and total different person with different values and beliefs. I had the grandiosity and narcissism. I became a heavy drinker, which I never had been before and am not now. My kids were my life before all that happened to me but they meant nothing to me. And when I fell, I fell HARD. Reality began to set in when my husband took custody of my kids and divorced me. I lost EVERYTHING. So I got help. It saved my life. I managed to get my husband and kids back. I managed to get my life back. I lost my job but I managed to purchase my own company and after the first year I was in the black. Get help before it's too late, before you have too many regrets. It can change your life