I don't understand why I struggle with food issues, weight issues and almost always obsessing with these things. Lately I haven't made it to the gym because I had no way to get there. I have been working out at home. I have been feeling so fat. I have been eating alot of junk. I went to the gym and was so scared to weigh myself. I actually lost a couple of pounds. Why do I suffer so and feel so fat when I'm not and sometimes when I try to diet I don't lose the weight as quickly as I want to. I have to work out or I will lose my mind. Exercise keeps me sane. Yes I am an exercise addict. Some people have to be, I guess.