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Originally Posted by gayleggg
You have been with her a long time. How does she handle you mood changes? Does she give you the space you need when the depression comes and you want to crawl in a hole? Those are the kind of things you have look at, can she deal with your mental illness?
You might want to go to counseling to see why this fear is clouding you feelings.
And yes, I have doubts about a lot of things I do, and talk myself out of what it is when I'm depressed. The one I have to watch is decisions I make when I'm manic. My mind can get me in a lot of trouble. But you are talking about someone you have been with for 4 1/2 years. Has the relationship been a good one so far. Good luck what ever you chose.
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She handles my mood changes well. She has given me space, too. I think she can handle my mental illness ok. It's been a good one except for my drama I've brought into it from going back and forth a lot - because I'm troubled. But she has always offered that I can come back. So last night I made a commitment to her (I was a little manic BUT I was basing my commitment on the fact that we love each other - not on my mania) that I would put pursuing marriage one of my top priorities here on out.
I see counseling and we're not sure why yet I have dark clouds of fear over my decisions. I am also schizoaffective, so maybe my thought disorder plays a role in that.