I have a problem that I know the right answer to but I'm struggling with anyway. I really care what my t thinks of me. I want him to like me. The problem is that I don't think my current, depressed, lazy, apathetic self is very likable. So I am tempted to go into therapy and say how I am doing all of the things I wish I was doing because that is the person he'd find interesting.

Of course that person doesn't need therapy.

I know it is bad that I am worried about whether he likes me or not but it really does matter to me.

Has anyone else struggled with this?