I have struggled with this. Yesterday, someone attacked me verbally, said some cruel things about my appearance. My t asked me what they said, and I was terrified for my t to have that image of me floating in her head (we meet online, so she doesn't really 'look' at me).

I wanted to hold back about my image to spare myself the pain- what if she agreed- as you fear that your t will see you as depressed, lazy, apathetic and unlikable...

but I believe that I am beautiful and likable. I have faith, that if your t is a good human being, what they will see is the truth- that you are a wonderful person who is *struggling.* Not lazy, not apathetic, not unlikable, but struggling. We're still beautiful in pain, really, it just takes the right people to see it I think.

Best wishes to you. I hope you'll trust your t to be your honest self, it can be quite a reward to have that self accepted, supported, and reflected positively in therapy.