Hi All,
Over the last ten years Ive suffered depression on and off. im 32 now and when I was younger, I didnt realise I was depressed, I just thought I was especially moody. 18 months ago I went to my doctor and was put on anti depressants as I was feeling so low and couldn't take it anymore. The tablets did the job and picked me up no end and with hindsight I started to realise something hadn't been right for a long time.About 11 months later I went back to my doctor as I was so down again that leaving the house was an effort, but being at home felt like the walls were closing in on me. I was especially concerned about the mood swings I was having, and again in hindsight realised I had been having for a long time, swinging from being "life and soul of the party" to an irrational irritability and anger This type of mood in itself would last about two weeks and then I would steadily decline into depression. I was very recently diagnosed as having type two bipolar disorder. Im aware that Im lucky to have my Dr recognise so relatively quickly (my drs awesome ) but it was still a shock. Ive started to doubt myself, second guessing everything and if Im honest Im a little afraid of my emotions.When in Hypomania Ive done some things Im so ashamed of. Ive started taking Lamictal and am starting my second week. Id really love to hear from people that are / have been in similar situations.