Sounds like you got your **** together. Well...Mostly together. You had me worried for a minute.

If we didn't have defective brain chemistry, we could just shake it off, but we do, so it's not really that easy.

Make sure you stay on your meds. I would be the last person to recommend inpatient, but it sounds like you are on your bicycle, running into the weeds. If your plans become more solid, strongly consider inpatient.