I just wanted to say that I am actually very happy with my life, but have a personal matter I have been dealing with and I guess I just want people to talk to...
I am 28 years old, and I have a good full time job working on airplanes. I work in a maintenance hanger for a fairly large Canadian aircraft company, and I actaully enjoy it for the most part.
I love working on my Project Chevrolet Nova, so I guess I can say I'm quite the gearhead.
I am also happily dating a wonderful woman who I'd do anything for... but this is where my issue comes into play...

... I've dated this girl for just over 10 months, and we both seem to love eachother alot... Seems I can talk to her about just about anything, but I just can't work up the nerve to tell her the one big secret I have been hiding for as long as I remember.
I am what would be considered a DL or Diaper Lover...
This has been a battle I have been fighting amongst myself for years...
Now to give you a better understanding of who I am on the aspect of Diapers, I don't regress "to a simpler time," nor do I actually use diapers for their intended purposes.
This is why I have this fear that there's something wrong me... I have no need for adult diapers... But it's a fetish. I do get a sexual stimulant at the idea of wearing and seeing adult women wearing... I am not into age play, but I have to admit that when I do wear, I am at ease if I become stressed, and that it does help me sleep.
I don't understand why I have this fetish, but I have come to the realization that this is just a part of me, whether I like it or not...
I've only dated two other girls before the one I'm seeing now.
The first girl I dated, We dated for 6 years, but the moment I finally confessed of my DL side, she lost all interest in me, and left me for another man.
The second girl I told her about a month into dating, and she seemed very supportive of this side of me, but suddenly wanted to stop seeing me.

Now with the girl I'm dating now, she just seems to complete me... She's great, loving, etc.
She's got a good job as a High School teacher, and a Dance Line coach, and she just seems to love me just as much as I do her.

But recently, my desires have been very strong... to the point I'm dying to tell her, but I'm worried sick that I will freak her out, and she will leave me.
We do not life together, so I have been wearing privately, but I just feel that she needs to know...

I don't really know what I'm looking for within this forum, but I would like to know your thoughts, and maybe some suggestions.
Am I strange and need to seek counseling?
Should I risk dooming a relationship that I'm loving every moment of by tell her my darkest secret, and if I do, how should I tell her without freaking her out?
I'm really at a loss here, because I feel it's wrong to keep this from her, because she has every right to know everything about me if we are to ever start considering a future together... but fear has me dead cold in the water.