I don't do romance. I do not understand it, and I feel pathetic because of it. I have been lucky and have a friend who feels the same way. We decided to form a platonic relationship. There is cuddling, hand holding, etc, but never that looming feeling of "what's next". We were best friends first, and will remain as such. We are happy in our situation, even if people don't understand it. We are comfortable. And we have always loved each other platonically.
My ex caught wind of this, and is now attacking our relationship. I happen to love my ex as a friend, she is one of the few friends I have. I adore her and would do anything for her. And I have a feeling she is exceedingly jealous. The thing is, she broke up with me. And it was a healthy, mature break up. The friendship remained and we speak everyday. Now, she is angry with me that I have this kind of relationship with another person. And I don't know what to make of it.
I would understand some sense of jealousy if I broke up with her. But I did not. She did. And now I am getting texts such as "I see you love someone more than me, now. Thanks." and very passive aggressive statements. I don't love my ex any less. All love is different. I am just struggling to understand why she is turning me into the bad guy when we have been broken up for nearly a year.
It doesn't make sense to me. If she wanted something with me again, she should have stated so. I shouldn't be guilted as some form of a last resort.
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