so my mom comes to school to pick me up, and the car is quite literally smoking. she had gotten into a pretty bad car accident just a few blocks from school. the other car was completely totaled, and the front end of hers is pretty shot as well, but apparently still in "driving condition" (once we drove for a few mintues, we realized it was clearly not...). my mom was pretty frazzled + crying. this car had been given to my mom by her mother shortly before she died, and is a rather sentimental item. on top of this, it doesnt have any collision insurance whatsoever. now, i feel like such a bad child. ive been dealing with depression for a few years now, and just a few weeks ago my parents were informed of my drug use and self injury. i feel terrible. my friends have ditched me, my mom is distraught over many issues (me, my dad cheating, her father in bad shape), and i feel like im only adding to the cause. why cant i just be a good ol' daughter-get nice grades, be jolly, all that fancy stuff. sorry for the ranting. just had to talk.

mel