I am ashamed of myself but confused at the same time!! I got my records from a hospital and was looking at Dr. names on them out of just being curious. I am applying for disability is why I even got them. I saw my sisters name on one and read the paragraph. they called my sister and she told them I have poor coping skills and when I get too overwhelmed I go to a hospital because I cant handle it. ??

When I am in distress, if I confide to a friend they TELL me I NEED to go and I don't *want* to go but it is appealing slightly because I know I will be safe and feel better. I know people will look after me and I wont have to hide how I feel I can feel bad and be honest if I want to.

How messed up am I??