aw I'm sorry. I sure understand the sentimental aspect too... but that's another story (of mine)

I hope things can work out... good that everyone is ok.

Please don't begin down that road you are going... because you will end up blaming yourself for the car accident if you do...

Do your best. I'm sorry that right now your best isn't really REAL good, but keep trying... there just isn't anything else that works.